Thursday, December 30, 2004

Going to be a tough New Years

I hope everybody had a great Merry Christmas and got what they wanted.

It was sad to hear about the earthquake and tsunami. My heart goes out to everybody, not just for the victims and families but also to anybody that has seen any kind of life turning event.

Christmas season was going on great until my wife last night snapped, we were eating dinner and our cat decided he was going to throw-up. I was just about to stand up to clean it up but she got up ahead of me and started to clean it up and flush it down the toilet. While she was doing that I went and grabbed paper towels and started to clean up the rest of it. I left one sheet of paper towel on the floor where the cat made a mess so we would not step on the wet carpet. When she sat back down to eat she started to cry, so I asked her what was bothering her. She told me that she was doing everything around the apartment and was stressed and didn't want to eat and was going to bed. After that she would not talk to me. I thought to myself "She does what? Everything?!". Did that every make me mad. She does not work and sleeps till 3pm when I'm at work and I do just as much or more at home. That night she went to sleep at 9pm probably half an hour after she said she was going to bed.

This morning I got up took my shower and got ready for work said good morning to her and what do I get, silence. I asked if she was going to still drive me to work like always and she says, "NO, I'm still feeling stressed." Well that left me with 15 minutes to make my coffee grab everything and drive there to find parking. I guess I should have known that she wouldn't drive me but that was my own fault for thinking that she would. Anyways I called her in the afternoon and talked to her for a bit and asked how she was doing, she said fine and that she was watching the World Junior Hockey game on TV (she's a huge hockey fan). That was great, only problem was when I got home she still barely talked to me and says that she was going to take a bath and relax. When I asked her what she wanted for dinner all I get was "Don't care". So while I was trying to figure out what I was going to make I recieved a phone call from a friend/co-worker who was groped at work by a customer. I have been trying to help her deal with this because she is one of my best friends. Well my wife heard me talking to her and starts to give he shit because she was calling me for help and says that She doesn't want me talking to her anymore. After about 1 hour of this I told her that I was going outside to cool off, 10 minutes later she's walking out the door and yelling that I don't love her anymore! I'm getting to the point where sometimes I think that maybe I'm the right person for her but I love her so much that I can't walk away. She always thinking that I don't love her but I don't know how to show her anymore than I already do. Its been a couple hours since she left, getting worried but she called my cousin and my aunt said she would call her and talk to her.

I'll write again when I figure out whats going on.

Saturday, December 18, 2004

Rough Morning

Woke up today with a hangover, tired and a little glad yesterday is over. We had a little get together with a few of our friends. Dinner and everything went fine but just getting to that point was hell for me. I don't know why but she decided to leave everything till 5:30 pm and for me to get home before she started anything, even the shopping of groceries. I was sick all week with a high fever but was unable to get time off work so why she didn't go shopping while I was at work is beyond me. Stressed me out completely to the point I thought about cancelling but decided I shouldn't. Like I said everything went fine and it was fun.

Don't know when I will pit up another post so I'll wish everbody a MERRY CHRISTMAS and a HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!

Monday, December 06, 2004

Excellent Week

It's been a few days since I put up a post, Sorry.

I received a couple of comments to my last post and wanted to say thank you, but I should say that during that evening I did go over to her every 15 or 20 minutes and asked is she wanted or needed anything. Everytime I asked she would say "no, thank you." Thats is why I was really surprised that she was going to leave me there, but I do understand what they were getting at.

Anyways there has been no other episodes or drama this week, I feel really relaxed the last few days not thinking about her hurting herself or locking herself in a room. She has gone to the doctors a couple of times this week and everything seems to be going really well (knock on wood) and that keeps me happy.