Friends Allowed?

Today she dropped me off at work like most days, I do this to try to do something. Everyday she's sleeping till 3 pm and staying awake till 4 am. I do not like this, and I tell her. What the problem is today is that she didn't seem very happy. So I sasked her if she was alright, and she told me she was OK. Even as I tried to get more out of her she said nothing. This evening approx. 7:30 a female co-worker called me, just a good friend that listens to me and has helped her during her last episode. My wife seems to think that there is something going on. My biggest problem with that is I love my wife and have explained to her why she calls me. This is not the first time it seem a female in my life has gotten her upset, my own sister. My grandfather passed away last year and I had to pick her up at the airport, brought her to the church and gave her a hug when she saw his body from the aisles because she was about to collapse. That next day she has a knife at her wrist and cutting herself, not deep but more than enough to scare the you know what out of me.

Right know I'm able to type this because she has decided that she's gonna go see a friend. She is pissed at me, why because I talked to somebody on the phone!!! I didn't hide any of the conversations I said everything my friend said I told her. I have lost so many contacts in the last 5 years that I have no friends outside of work. This hurts me I think as it hurts her, she just does not understand that. I need my friends to talk to but she won't let me without feeling guilty.